Thursday, March 12, 2009

l know I know







I know its been awhile. I have much to say, but not sure what should be said in such a "public" forum (as if anyone really reads this :) ) Felt the frustrations of life piling up these days and not sure where to go with it...so, after more praying and thought...i will update with a real post...til then...keep your heads up...your spirits high...as God is bigger than any problem we think we have!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Jehovah's Witneses

Since moving to the new house in September, Danielle has been "visited" by Jehovah's Witnesses on a number of occasions, each time politely saying "no thanks" and closing the door. Not an unusual circumstance....they are a large group, and they have a large emphas, is on door-to-door witnessing...and that is the extent of my knowledge of their religion. That all changed today.





With clear blue skies, a light breeze, and the sun glowing gently, I decided that it was an perfect day to clean out the car. Backing out my now nearly gray, black sedan, I began in the drivers seat and would go clockwise around the car. Things were going smoothly, I "de-trashed", returned lost items to their proper places, and even vacuumed the majority of the interior. Wanting to take it one step further I searched the car for Armor All wipes I was sure exisited. Triumpant, I began back outside to finish my little "saturday chore". Once outside, I watched as the small black Honda Civic approached and pulled in front of my house. Racking my brain for who this may be, I quickly decided they must be at the wrong house and continued on with my quest for a clean car. With the Armour All fumes filling the car, I was interupted by the sound of the roar of my lovable beast Shiner. As I look over my shoulder, I hear the pleasantries of a well-dressed, mid-30's gentleman. As my brain races to answer the question of "who is this guy", I instintively respond to his "does he bite?" inquistions with a sarcastic "on command, should i ask him to?". Slightly dissapointed with my self for the response to a stranger, my neurons fire and I know who this is...a Jehovah's Witness. "Oh yeah" I remark to myself as Will introduces himself and his equally well dressed cohort through nervous laughter. Feeling I know what "good news" they were prepared to share, I rudely interupt and explain to them I am a Christian and not interest in hearing what they have to say, and with that I turned to continue what I had already begun. On my short walk back to the car my brain began to race..."was I rude?", "do i really know what they had to say", "how would i have felt if I had been treated that way?" My shoulders sank as the realization of my behavior hit me, in the same breath, I had just claimed to be a "God fearing Christian" while ignoring the feelings of my fellow man. The realization that I had never given these people or their faith a second thought, not once had I even given them the respect of "googling" what they actually believe. Through the years, many had come, many had been brushed aside, and never had I considered anything beyond what I had been told by my doting mother.

I listened this time, not only listened, but questioned. "what do you belive that I don't", "why do people have the conitation that they do" "how do you get the courage to go door to door" We discussed issue by issue...or so I believed. Providing limited information, but opting instead to read a single scripture to provide a basis for an ingrained belief. I pushed this theory, "how can you expect me to take a single scripture for its face value, don't you think each should be consider in the context in which it was said?" Simple answers are given to my questions, instead institing on focusing on previously discussed common grounds. Compliments are provided as positive reinforcement to common ground. Yet, I remained uneasy. When asked to summarize the differences in beliefs, I was given the following..."we added the word Jehovah, hebrew for God back to the bible", "we believe in the fat her, the son, and the holy ghost exist, but were different people", and finally "we believe that God will return to earth to reign over his kingdom". Not complex differences, while they do contain a "deal breaker", my mind pondered the vilification of such a religion. "of all the problems in the world, why pick this religion for society to shun" This notion could not excape the mind. Eating at my thoughts through out the day.

The answer was clear and obvious. It took only a few moments in front of the computer screen. Simple strokes of the key board, that unfortunately I fear most never take the effort to make. These well dressed, soft spoken, members of the Jehovah's Witness religion are no more than the car salesmen of the religious realm. Armed with a bible and a few key passages, these men and women spead the words of a cult. Leaving out key differences, they are simply looking for you to take the bait. A religion built on the belief that other religions are foolish and the attempt for personal understanding of the Bible is considered "foolish". I was taken aback. The differences were substainal and not at all as simple as stated. Speaking to a country filled with people who are not familar with the Bible,and sadly, unmotivated to pick it up themselves, these salesmen sell a religion designed to make you feel good. My concern is not for the few, but rather than many that are lost and looking for the answers. The answers that our lord and savior are waiting to give, but waiting for us to listen. These thirsty souls led by the enemy to a cult of selfish origin. My prayers reach out to these people as they are led astray.

Obvisously I have not discussed the many differences hear, as they are too many to go in hear, but I strongly encourage you to take the time and make the simple search of "jehovah witness" in your google search bar.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Enabler

Recently more and more people have found it necessary to point out to me that I am an "enabler". On face value that sounds bad, I agree. But is it always? I do what I can to help...does that make me bad? I base my decisions on what I think God would want me to do...does that make me bad? I give my heart, dedication, passion, and loyalty...regardless if anything is returned...does that make me bad? I do not think so. While, admittedly I do get frustrated/hurt/upset at certain situations..which often lead to my frustration being vented in the wrong direction...i think people need to behave in such a way as to answer to one person, our heavenly father. If I base my actions on what I think God would have me do...regardless of the actions of those around me...I am comfortable with myself. I know that I can not fix everyones problems, but God can...and if I allow myself to be a vessel...lifes/people can be reached.

I know there is more to say here, but I get myself consfused, so for know, I will leave it at that.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Square peg in a round hole...

How many of you remember those "work bench" toys when you were a kid...the kind that had different shaped holes cut out for you to hammer the pieces through...you had the round hole, square hole, star hole, etc...My mom always told me how I would force the pieces through, regardless of the shape hole...what ever one i landed on...was the one the piece was going through...be it through me hammering, stomping or smashing...sometimes the pieces would fit through the wrong hole with out problems or sometimes I would just land on the right hole...I bring this up because I have been thinking about how people fit in their lives...be in volunteering, working, whatever...I think our lives are alot like that work bench. God has designed us for as specific part...a special need...and we have a special place in this world...however, many of us take the route I did as a child and just try to force ourselves into a situation..even when we clearly are not intended for that. Sometimes it feels like we found our fit because things are going smoothly only to find out later that we are in the wrong spot (ie. the circle piece sliding through the square hole)...while the fit may seem fine, we then find ourselves working harder to increase our weaknesses, rather than increasing our strengths that God has given us. Then there are the times that we take our time...pray...and figure out where we belong. This idea helps to explain alot for me. It explains alot of the problems with volunteers...many of them are circle pegs being hammered into star holes...just because we need a star piece...it explains alot of the problems with marriages...with careers...with everything. If we all took our time, prayed, we believe we would find our "hole"...but in our fast paced, results now world...i think we all go "little eric" style and just hammer away...trying to make it fit "our" way.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

THE SKY IS FALLING!

Okay...so its not really falling...as many thought it would. Yes, Obama won the election...did you really think things would come crashing down? Am I happy? NO. Bitter? Absolutely not. Its not like things were going awesome and everyone is happy. The economy sucks. Who would have thought people would get frustrated and vote for the other party? Go figure! :) What I don't understand is people that are hoping for drastic change. Obama first and foremost wanted to be president...do you think he wanted to be president for 4 years? Not a chance. He wants all 8 years. So what you ask? To me that means he is going to do and say things to play nice. If he goes off the liberal deep end, he will push this country back to its conservative roots and I think he is smart enough to know that. I see him finding one, maybe two things he promised in his campaign to try and push through in the first couple of months...but the reality is this...he is in a tough position...times are rough and he is about to get a serious dose of the reality that is being the President on the United States. I for one and going to take a page out of my 4 year old daughters book..(a little back story here...Jade came home from school with a "My vote counted" sticker, so Danielle asked her..."who did you vote for"...she said, "nobody, i did not know who they were" (another sidebar...if only our country would take this stance...and not vote blindly just because the "other kids" were); but I do know who Kaitlyn (her best friend at school )voted for, she voted for "Mobama"....and she explained that Ms. Little told them to watch the news and follow the election, a little weird to ask kindergarten in my opinion, but we did it anyways...this led to many many questions...regarding who mom and dad were going to vote for...why we were voting for them and why was everyone so angry...so we just had an awesome night explaining all of this to a 4 (emma got very interested) and 5 year old)...so...Emma wakes up, comes running down stairs and I have the news on and she hears Obama...she turns to me as says "Did Obama win Dad?"...yes..."I hope God can change him, I am going to pray"...what a thought? What if instead of complaining...we actually trusted that God knows whats going on and we trust him?

Thursday, October 23, 2008

this week...

argh! not sure the source, but I have been really frustrated this week. Grrr

Monday, October 20, 2008

I wish I could listen more often

It strange. I ask God to speak to me all the time. Tell me what to do. And sometimes he speaks loudly. Friday I had the priviledge of meeting Pastor Ron..Ron is a children's pastor in Tulsa, and I have never been so inspired in my life. It was a "hey do you mind if we go talk to this guy" type of meeting, but Ron sat down with us and shared what God has done in his life and prayed over us. He spoke of how God uses people and remember to allow to let God use us and to help God use those around us. It was really an awesome moment in my life and I only hope that I can listen to God this time and do what he wants.