Hypocrite...

hypocrite [hip-oh-krit]
Noun
a person who pretends to be what he or she is not

Thats what I am.

I don't want to be...i don't try to be...I just am.

I can stand on a street corner, behind a pulpit, on a stage, in my office, my bedroom...anywhere and tell people...do not lose faith when things get tough...in fact that is when you should have the most faith!

Yet, what do I do in my own life?! Things get tough and I immediately try to figure out how to fix them myself...God does not need my help! I need to try and stay faithful...do what God asks me to do and trust that he will always be there for me....this has been a tough lesson and sometimes gets scary...but I know that things will work out...even with out my help!